In The Beginning…Let’s Go.

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In the beginning…let’s go. 

Welcome, welcome, welcome! This is the very beginning of my journey. Today I will try to explain what this blog, the website, and the youtube channel are all about. 

I am a retired military veteran that served 24 years. I loved my military career, but it didn’t come without it’s sacrifices. I have struggled with alcohol use disorder for at least the last 15 years. I haved attended rehab (3 times). I have had broken relationships, physical problems, etc, etc. Alcohol has caused a lot of problems in my life. 

During my last rehab I was diagnosed with PTSD, Generalized Anxiety, and Depression. I have insomnia, sleep apnea, the list goes on. 

When I retired from the military I started researching alternative treatments and therapies that I could not while serving in the military. During my research I came across a medicine that has been barely researched yet shows amazing promise in treating most of the issues that I suffer from. 

The name of this miracle drug?  Psilocybin. Yes, the same active component in magic mushrooms. 

As I continued my research I determined that psilocybin may actually help me to improve my mental health, my relationships, my presence in this world. The only minor problem? These mushrooms are illegal just about everywhere, including the United States. 

It’s amazing to me that this potential medical miracle comes from a completely natural substance. These mushrooms grow literally everywhere across North and South America. There are no known side effects. No lethal dosage. 

Completely natural, yet deemed by the government to be a threat to society. 

Now I’ve decided. Psilocybin is the best option to help me improve my life. I looked into studies being conducted by Johns Hopkins Medical. I would be rejected to participate in these studies because I have ingested a psychedelic substance before. I tried LSD twice in my teens. 

Since I could not participate in a study I decided to conduct my own. And that is where this journey starts. I am excited and hopeful that these mushrooms, and others can help me live a happier, healthier, and more fulfilling life. 

There was only one small challenge in my way. How the hell do I locate magic mushrooms?

I started looking into options. I live in an area where I know very few people. And none of these people would have a clue where to obtain some. I could go on the dark web and look to purchase some. This option seemed far too risky to me and I am not trying to find trouble. I could go foraging for these mushrooms in the wild. I actually plan to try this in the future, but this would not be an immediate solution. 

If I can’t buy them, or find them, how do I get them? The only logical choice is to attempt growing them at home. 

Now I must be clear. Growing and cultivating psychedelic mushrooms is illegal in almost every part of the country. I weighed the risk versus potential reward and came to the conclusion that growing my own would be the safest option. I know exactly what I am getting. I can do it fairly cheaply, and it would be a fun hobby. 

I have always had fun making my own stuff. As a teen I tried my hand at growing weed. Not the most successful venture. I have been making my own wine for several years and have loved the science and the art of it. Amteur mycology (the science of studying fungi) sounds like fun to me also while providing what could be nothing short of a godsend. 

So I have decided to attempt growing my own psilocybin mushrooms and microdosing them as an unscientific yet personal experiment. 

The truth is, I don’t know if these mushrooms will help me improve these areas of my life or not. But I won’t know unless I try. I am throwing myself all in and being very intentional in my usage of the substance, and the outcomes I want to achieve. I will be adding in meditation, yoga, excercise, healthy eating/sleep habits, and journaling (this blog). It is this way that I feel I will be able to utilize the full impact of the mushrooms themselves. 

DISCLAIMER: It is illegal to grow and cultivate mushrooms containing psychedelic compounds. I do not recommend anyone break any laws. I am not a medical professional and do not provide this information to be considered medical advice. Be smart, be safe, and know what the applicable laws are in your area. 

This blog will document my journey from total newbie to psychonaut. I hope that you find value in my content. Hell, I don’t know if anyone will read this or not. But it doesn’t really matter. This is my therapy and this blog will keep me honest. If I know people are following it will make me accountable to giving this experiment my full effort. 

If you are reading this…thank you. I hope to build a community of like minded individuals where we can share information and ideas. 

If you read this, please drop me a comment to let me know you did. 

Thanks! 

Kilo